harmonious madness.

I wish I knew, I really do.

I have too many interests and not enough time; if I were to have ten lives I’d work for the UN or be an influential experimental novelist or a jazz/pop pianist (who breaks the crossover charts), I’d be an archaeologist digging up tombs in Egypt or a social worker, I’d be a mother or I’d be childless - I’d travel around the world or stay in a beachside shanty for the rest of my life.  

at the moment, I’ve been tossing up between international studies, law, arts, psych, or media and communications - and any mix of those two as a double degree so yeah. I don’t know.

I’ll just proceed to cry about my future now.

DEAR MARCE- SONIA, THE VAMPIRE QUEEN. I ADDRESS YOU WITH THIS OFFERING OF THE BLOOD OF YOUR ENEMIES, OH DEAR ONE, MAY YOUR ETERNITY OF YEARS BE FILLED WITH SOLITUDE AND PALE MOONS.

I SHOULD ENTREAT THAT FROM THIS POINT HEREAFTER I WILL ADDRESS YOU AS A MORTAL because i can’t scream that long and man my voice is tired.

like you, I’m glad that we have so many frees together to the point where it’s the running joke of our lines that we never study because hey, I need my sanity, and you need yours, and sometimes a cup of tea and long talks are just the way to do it. re: bible questions, I’m glad and over the moon at most times you have the mind to ask and not delve into presuppositions. and I’m over the moon and back that you trust me enough to let me in where you see fit, and you put up with my repetitive rants over and over. you’re my counterbalance in a lot of ways, and I think that the system works out for us minus the sleep deficit. I admire your resilience and curiousity and the fact you can call me out on my crap when needs be, the fact that you’re  loyal even if you think you’re cold, the way you can counteract my overgiving with restraint. I blame you for my writing becoming more lyrical by the second. You’re one of the few girls I could get fairly close to, and I’m thankful for the fact that we both need our space but more importantly, that we can both understand each other’s needs in that respect. There’s a beauty in that kind of friendship that I hope you see; a beauty that comes from you.

I still have your sticky note cartoons saved in your christmas card in my room, and your #swag all over my books. nearly all of them. idk why you drew some of them. I expect answers, with references to context and at least three examples from the text by next week.

your loyal subject,
waiting with tea on a balcony. 

I was trawling through music blogs the other day and came across Sound Doctrine - discovered Tim Fitz through there, haha. I’m very glad I did =)

oh joy castle anon!
hm, I guess I would say that I am happy, but not in the kid OH MY GOSH CHRISTMAS SANTA SANTA CANDY SO MUCH CANDY PRESENTS kind of way. It’s a nice, quiet content time for me usually.
I’d like to think I made people happy this Christmas, because this was the first year I had enough funds of my own to give presents of my own volition without needing (extra) cash from parents or friends’ input etc. But, presents aside, I think having other people’s company was nice. I went to a midnight service at church, and that  was lovely, along with a dinner with my sister and her family.
REALLY REALLY HAPPY? on Christmas? probably in my younger years, back in the time my family was trying to act as one unit and my dad dressed up as Santa Claus during an extended family party. That was a nice gesture - even though my belief in Santa quickly deteriorated after that, haha. 

oh dear, sorry for the late reply.

well, I don’t know someone specifically with the actual name of Bob, and there are no Roberts I know of that go by the name of Bob, but I do have a friend that for a period of time was nicknamed Bob due to my other friends feeling the need to place similarly odd-yet-boring names to people.

they include Bob, Fred, and That Guy #1.

he doesn’t go by that name anymore, for good reason. (and primarily because we wouldn’t remember anyway)

he’s far more studious than I’ll ever be and probably a lot more sane too. we still talk from time to time on occasion. 

 6. Post a picture of your current workspace.

And you people don’t believe me when I say I’m not organised in the slightest.

17. If you could have any type of hair and hairdo you wished for, how would you choose to have your hair?

I’d want to have hair with weird magical properties, like Rapunzel’s in Tangled. It glows in the dark =OO Though not snakes. Snakes would be a bit troublesome.

I’m cool with my black hair though.

37. How far have you ever gone with the opposite sex?

Hugs and holding hands. 

47. What song do you listen to when you’re feeling ‘psyched’?

Depends on what type of psyched.

Psyched as in I’M SO HAPPY THIS IS AMAZING THIS IS GOING TO BLOW MY EXPECTATIONS OF EVERYTHING would be Sideswiper by Fang Island.

I can’t think of anything else off the top of my head.

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now?
Probably not.

lol why would an 18 year old like me in the first place.

34. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be?
Last year probably, to be quite honest with you. It was fun in a way but my mindset was horrible, and it’s vaguely memorable for all the wrong reasons.

68. Have your pants ever fallen down in public?
Not that I know of.

91. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months?
why, you’re awfully funny.  

haha, but in all seriousness I’m not too worried about that, nor does it really matter right now.

thanks so much! =3 if happiness equates to family, games, and food I’m pretty sure I was quite satiated in terms of what my birthday should provide haha. terih makasih!